today:
b- coffee & an apple
l- tba
d- tba

yesterday:
b- coffee and green tea
l- some carrots, cheese & bread
d- 80 grams of chicken & two table spoons of rice.

b- one slice of white bread with peanutbutter, applejuice & coffee
l-tba
d-tba

I'm awefull. I eat to much,
and I have 11 days left.
Then my brother comes here,
with about 10/15 guys,
and I'm madly in love with one of them.
I'm in the south of france now.
With my partents. I weigh about
50kg or maybe 51kg.
In 4 weeks my new life starts,
at college. My goal for december,
(yes I am nice to myself) is 45kg or 46kg.
I need to loose weight before he comes,
I know I've been away a long time. But I
need the support right now.
God, I'm such a mess.
I'll update everyday from now on,

love,
m.

Fat Cow Fat Cow



I need to feel empty tomorrow. This sucks.
Urgh, Monday is my first day in bikini.
God. I don't know what to do.
My stomach needs to be EMPTY.

I think I've lost some weight. I don't dare stand on the scale though.
I've taken to many painkillers though, bad bad bad.
But I can't stand the pain.

I feel completely useless today. I've watched 7(yes seven) Skins episodes.
But I've also learnt some french.
Still I'm useless(pc), grumpy(pain) and fat(blegh,).

b: a kiwi, special k and a wasa cracker
l: some tuna and salad
d: tba